I have free time today and all Friday and the weekend. So!


Three free Art Requests!

First three to comment on this journal will get an art request free! I want to draw that badly, haha.

Alright, so rules

PG:13, which means no sex. Sorries.

No child and adult relations.

Um...no others I guess. I will do nudity...but I warn you, my naked men suck.


So come on, whee!

Well the commissions completely blew. Which left me yutterly bored and broke until my loan comes in next week.

Besides that I finally have all the boxes in my apartment thrown out. I am relaxed for now, and am getting ready to attent my classes for the day. I'm waiting for the bus at the moment. I'm bored needless to say.

Besides that I have finally decided on my NaNoWriMo novel, and I am going to work on the chapter guide today between classes. Its dorky, but it was inspired by Miss Meyer. For those who know me, know what that means. Or I hope they do anyway, haha.

I have a lot of writing to do still the Sea and the Wolf. I only have three chapters left to write, but that leaves a lot of writing and editing. (Shivers)

Also I have a new scanner/printer, and so I hope by Friday I will be getting around to posting the ton of stuff I haven't updated yet. In advance I am sorry for making people's inboxes explode. I will also be working on my painting and drawings. Thanks to my TWO art classes. A painting and Drawing and Sketching, which I hope it will make it approve.

I got my tablet ready too. Hurray!

Anyway, what does everyone think of the name Breeze? Not for a real person, but a fictional character who everyone like her is also named after nature like things. So, what do you all think of the name? Honesty please. (glomps)

Alrighty, well I am back in Fredericton and I start classes Wenesday night. And I am bored out of my mind. I need something to do.

So I will be doing $5 commissions. Anything you want for $5. I will just about do anything except backgrounds for this price. No child porn of course. But just about anything else I will do.

My payment method is paypal or money order. Prices are to last straight through to Friday.

Like I thought....

Well this has been an interesting summer...I found things out I didn't know about myself. Such as my mother never told me that I am Autistic. She says that I was never formally diagnosed with it, but my family doctor was positive I am when I was little. It does explain things a little bit better about myself, when I think about it I guess I do have some symptoms. I had problem communicating, and I was in speech therapy until I was 12, and started it when I was 4. I had problems in getting into interests that other had. I know this is true. I hated everything everyone else was into. I’d listen to a group because all my friends were into, and I would really sit there and just think, ‘God, I hate this music.’ Then once middle school hid I kind of said fuck it, and listened to whatever I wanted. Even today my mom tell’s me my interests are just freaky.

Somewhat anti-social, but not completely. They say that people who do have this are limited to their social outings. Which is true, there are some places I go and I just don’t feel comfortable. And I’m not talking about parties and stuff. I mean in clothing stores, big restaurants, car lots. Just some places where you do have to interact and have strangers looking or talking you to frightening me to death. If I don’t have to socialize on a large scale outside my friends I am a happy camper.

My parents always use to tell me how I use to live in my own world, and that I would blank out randomly in the middle of a sentence. Some friends can tell you how I will still do this. I will be in the middle of an angry rant and it will go like this. “OMFG I hate that little bitch can you believe that she….” I blank out for a minute and I stop and then speak again. “What was I saying?” They always tell me how I would always be off into my own world and they would need to physically turn my face towards them and poke me to get my attention. Which is another sign of Autism.

And tantrums. Well all my friends can tell you how I take tantrum’s. Especially when it comes to my family, I always rant and rave about them, and am pretty calm when I talk about others who upset me. And I don’t know about this, but I have French-Hands. Which means I use my hands to talk when I am explaining stuff. According to my own research, people with autism are more comfortable talking with their hands, rather than just speaking. They say that they feel naked without it. I don’t know if that is just me or it is a sign, but I cannot talk without my hands, I feel naked and uncomfortable with not using my hands to talk…
One thing that makes me feel better is that they say that Autistic children have a terrible time using their imagination for play. I have to say that is not a problem I have. I have a problem with turning mine off.

And for other problems I have begun to get severe pain in my legs, mostly in my ankles, and now I am a little worried because my mom put the idea into my head that I have juvenile arthritis. Arthritis does run in my family in my family, and it is doing nothing of my nerves. I am talking to my doctor first and seeing what I can do. My mom has listed all these things I can do to help, and I honestly don’t want to so any of them. I have to start eating berries, because they have anti-toxicants. I hate berries, I have to force strawberries down my throat and I hate it. I feel like I’m gonna throw up every time I eat a berry. Another thing is I have to take a whole shit load of multi-vitiams, which I feel like I am already doing, but now I have to add a whole bunch more. And I am going to have to get acupuncture. I have a fear of needles. I suck it up when it comes to blood tests and flu shots, but I can’t stand them. And just the thought of them all in my knees and legs makes me want to puke.

So you can all see this had been a bit of a poor summer for me. I find myself even more self-cautious than I was before and now I feel like an old woman, disparate to stop my body from aging and getting worse. And I’m only 21!